So I will not be able to graduate on March. I am failing my thesis subject (CS197), for which I have not been submitting requirements prior the submission of my new topic proposal. I got zero after zero for the individual requirements, until it just did not make sense to submit succeeding requirements anymore. Maybe it could still have worked out and I made the mistake of deciding too early, but what is done now is done already anyway.
The first thought I had when I realized how grave the situation has become? “Finally, I learn my lesson.” This, in some way, is a good thing. The succeeding thoughts are not as positive: how to break the news to my parents, how to soften the blow of the late graduation by not having my parents pay for tuition and not touching personal savings, what kind of job I really want to have, how badly I messed up that I will be limited to some extent by the fact that I am still not done with college.
I realize still that all this is still worth it, as I am working on a thesis that I respect and that hopefully can be a place to work from so that I can find a job that I enjoy. So what happens to me now? I go on with school, become employed from March until the end of May, graduate on May, then work from there. And sometime before the end of February, I have to talk with my department, the Office of Admission and Aid (OAA), and my parents.
Thanks for the support, and sorry.